Life ? Do i look like i carry a good life along with me ? The answer is NO !
For now , i know it's freaking hurt . But i dont know how to express it .
What is the meaning of love ? What exactly is that ? What exactly we should do ?
Please , someone tell me ! I c'nnt keep it any longer . I do look like i'm happy but deep inside , it's freaking hurt . The pain ! I'm sorry , i need to let go everything here . My blog . My story
Yea , i don't know how long i could keep it from you people . As i know , one day you will know about it . So here i am today to tell you . I'm sorry , didn't i told u , one day u will know what's going on with me and what's going on deep in my heart . All i know , it's full of sickness . Pain which i carry along wherever i go .
Hmm , yes it's true that i still do have feelings towards him . But the feeling doesn't mean i want him back with me . It's just a memories which i c'nnt forget that easy . So bear with me , if i look at both of you in a weird looking . I know , you would say like what sia look look . And u thing i'm unhappy with you . Please don't get me wrong . I have no motive behind me . I'm looking at you couple bcause i dont feel that love i get from him . Yea , mayb it's my mistake who doesn't know how to treat a boyf . But , i dont like to compare ! And no one like to compare too ! Yea , me n him are over . We're not in any relationship anymore as he is attch to my own bestf . But ofcourse feelings towards him is a yes . But i dont have this mind set of getting him back . NO , I swear ! I'm not the type of ghurl who want to fight with her own bestf just bcause of a guy . Trust me . I love Qeen more then him ( my ex ) And yes , i'm sorry qeen for being apart from you . Idk why that happen to us . Mayb i being apart with u bcause i want to forget about him . Mayb , idk too .
I've been thinking of this past few days . I'm sorry once again . What happen at the canteen today , put it behind us . okehy ?

Hayat , idk what to say . You express your feelings towards me . And u want me back . right ? But why ? Do u have the reason why should i get back with you ? Do you really change ? If i accept u again , what if u repeat the same mistake again ? It's hard to accept you . I know , u're trying ur best to get me back . But now , the thing is , it's hard for me to accept u back in my life . I don't want those problem which we experience it again to happen . Get it ? Yat , it's hurt if that gonna happen to me again . Seriously , it hurts !
So , bear with me please . I really want you to change . please ?

Hidayat , yes it's true i like you . But why must this happen to us ?
why ? why must i the one who always make the first move ?
2 years of waiting . all i know , nothing happen between us . I carry along the pain .

Afiq , i know i hurt you alot . I myself dont get myself right . Seriously , i'm sorry if i cheat your feelings several times . I dont really mean it . How do u expect me to like you if u urself dont show me anything . U just say u like me , but all that comes thru MSG  !

Jazzmi , you love me urh ? No , that's not true . That was only a bet from Hidayat n Hissam , right ?
They bet you to matair with me for 1 month ! WTH ! you think i'm stupid ah ? No , i won't get cheat that easily . Seriously , don't ever say the word i like you / i love you if you don't really mean it . Ty .

Friends , i know i'm being apart from you guys now . mayb , i need sometimes to chill down . thanks

takecare