Old memories keep flashing back into my mind . I do not remember days but i remember moments we shared together . It's pretty sweet , yea ?  I miss it , i miss your smile and i still shed a tear every once in a while . Even though it's different now , you're still here somehow . I just wann'a tell you how much i miss you . How i wish i could flash back every single sweet memories about you and me . I'm just thinking back on th past . It's true what people said that time is flying by too fast .  But , what past is past . No point thinking about it . Right ? Well , it's pretty sweet of you keeping tht stupid thing . You know what i mean ? It's freaking childish . uh ? But thanks Ex Bf . And yes , i read it already . hahaha ' how annoying i am . bahahahaha ! I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh . But i never knew looking back on th laugh would make me cry . Memories are treasures worth far more than gold . Sometimes the memories flood my mind and i stop everything and just smile . In life there are tears , smiles and memories . Th tears dry , the smiles face , but th memories last forever . Well , i thank god for you and the memories . Thank you so much .

My life :

I think i'm ugly , fat and stupid . I just don't want to be around anymore . It will make people surrounding me happy . I always think that everyone would be better off without me and that i'm just in the way of everyone . I feel like my life is nothing but a big screw up and that i'm useless . I just don't know what i'm i doing . I feel lost and alone . I just don't know how much longer i can take being here and always being hurt . I just wanna be someone else who is cheerful every single time . I hate feeling this way and i don't know how to get over it and overcome all my feelings . Whenever i look in the mirror , i see nothing but a fat ugly useless person . As long as i can remember , i always felt that i'm a loser , i'm fat , i'm ugly , i'm useless , i'm a dissapointment , a burden , a failure , i'm always wrong , i'm not good enough . I don't unerstand why i feel like this , or always felt like this . I don't know if there's someone to blame or am i to blame ? Is it all in my head ? Am i just moaning because i can't handle anything ?

MY BLOG IS DEAD .

WILL UPDATE SOON IF I HAVE TIME .

Tears are words my heart cannot say

Its been weeks since i last updated my blog . I have enough going away and now i'm back . I won't be posting that often since i'm always busy . Life has been great to me . Thank you (!) I've been through ups and downs lately but i am still standing strong here (: I've learn alot about life just by going through all the obstacle . I've been keeping all my problems to myself . I don't intend to share it with anyone . I maybe a cheerful girl but deep inside there's so much pain that i have to bear . Nehmind , i will still roll with my life .

Been going home LATE this days . TOO MUCH extra classes going on . Give me time to take a break will you ? Especially maths . It's killing me , i swear . Gaaaah (!) Exam getting nearier - so i just need to study and study .

I guess , i gon'na end my post here for today . Selamat berbuka puasa Umat Islam (:

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