Love is being stupid together

I don't get the idea why . I don't know why i fall in love with you . I don't know why i miss you every minute . I don't know why i care for you so much . I don't know why am i waiting for you . I don't know why am i keeping quiet when you blast harsh word towards me . I don't know why am i saying all those good stuff about you . I don't know why am i keep defending you . I don't know why it's hard for me to let go off you . I don't know why your name is still running around my mind . I don't know why your faces are still in my mind . I don't know why when i wan'na sleep i kept thinking about you . I don't know why i go around like a monkey when i saw you  . I don't know why you're so special to me . I don't know why am i still thinking about you .

I don't know why !

I really hope that this feelings will fade away and never step in again into my heart/life . Never .

ohh Yes , i felt jealous when i saw couple's around me . Atleast they have someone with them . Why am i being stupid rejecting him ? Why am i so stupid ? No , i have no regret for that . Atleast i'm here being happy . But why people these days are being nuisance . Why they care so much when a person is single . Why are they spotting nonsence when a person is single . Why ? Ohhmygod , i'm sick to hear those nonsence . First thing first , why are you being so auntie auntie style ? No life is it ? I'm saying this once , when people are single , there's alot of reason why they are being single . First thing first , god is fair enough . We're not born to be single ! Is just that , people are waitng for the right time . So i guess you guys out there stop the nonsence of saying bad about people being single . Don't tell me that you never step in a life of being single lady/guy . Unless you are the kind of * you know what i mean right ?

I don't know why i said those things to you my friend . I don't know what the hell am i thinking that moment when i just blast out the bloody word to you . Is just that , i felt you are a sweet talk . That's all .She think so too . I'm sorry . Yea , you go around and tell people that you're my bestfriend . What was that for silly boy ? I'm sorry if i made you cry ytd night . I really don't mean it . I really don't . But you should understand my situation . I just get easily pissed off with just a tiny little thing . I guess for now , you should know . right ? Why are you telling me who you like ? I don't care.  That's your life . Yes mayb i may be your bestf but there's nothing for you to tell me everything . Right ? Sooner or later people will think that i'm the one who controling you life. Whereas i'm not . It's your life , and you just go with whoever you love ok . I'm here for you . To support you and give a slight tap on your shoulder . That's all i could do . Mayb ytd i said harsh word to you till i made the situation when you cried . I really don't mean it .

I'm sorry

And evryone has their right to move on . you want me to wait for you till when ? Don't blame me if i have to move on . I really cannot stand it . And im sorry . I don't have this strong feelings towards you which people called love . Yes i do have for you but not much . So please stop controling me .