I'm totally pissed off with everything without any reason . I have no idea what exactly is my feelings . Sad , mad , happy , angry ? Oh shit , i don't know what happen to me ! My mind are totally blank . A few minutes , i will smile , laugh and a few minutes i will keep myself silent n moody . I felt that i wanted to scold everyone surrounding me . Oh humairah ! Well , school was actually good for today but i'm the one who make my day sucks . It just like a snap and my mood will change . And i'm aware that i'm being so sarcastic today . I also aware that when my friends were talking to me , i were like " oh whatever " I'm sorry guys , I don't mean it . I'm not in a good mood actually although you see me smile & laugh . It's all drama ~ it's all a act . But deep inside , i'm crying still . All i know i don't give a fucking care about anything . I don't care about people & things that happen surrounding me . Oh , i hate it this way ~ the way i act , the way i talk , the way i write and everything . Change me ! I know you can't but i can . Friends , btw i didn't change at all ~ not even a bit . Just that too much problems are in my mind , head , brain . It's wondering all over my mind . I really need time to forget all the pain i gone thru . I know you guys hate the way i act now as in ytd and today . I know , it's obvious enough as i hate it too . Alot than you . But please , understand me for once . I need to get rid or everything . Him , them , her . Everything .