My life :

I think i'm ugly , fat and stupid . I just don't want to be around anymore . It will make people surrounding me happy . I always think that everyone would be better off without me and that i'm just in the way of everyone . I feel like my life is nothing but a big screw up and that i'm useless . I just don't know what i'm i doing . I feel lost and alone . I just don't know how much longer i can take being here and always being hurt . I just wanna be someone else who is cheerful every single time . I hate feeling this way and i don't know how to get over it and overcome all my feelings . Whenever i look in the mirror , i see nothing but a fat ugly useless person . As long as i can remember , i always felt that i'm a loser , i'm fat , i'm ugly , i'm useless , i'm a dissapointment , a burden , a failure , i'm always wrong , i'm not good enough . I don't unerstand why i feel like this , or always felt like this . I don't know if there's someone to blame or am i to blame ? Is it all in my head ? Am i just moaning because i can't handle anything ?